This post is one I decided to resurrect because I can look back now and truly see how God brought deliverance from insecurity in my life, after God opened my eyes to the below realization of what insecurity is. There truly has been peace in this area of my life since. When I am tempted to return to insecurity, I am reminded now of who I am in Christ Jesus. I hope this old post is a blessing to you.
Insecurity. This word has come out of my mouth more often than I care to admit. A lifetime of struggling, settling, and struggling again, never came close to revealing to me the true repercussions of insecurity, like I believe God opened my eyes to recently.
Marked off as a personality trait, I seemed to accept the fact that insecurity would always be something I felt in particular situations. So many things can be classified as a personality trait. We’ve probably all spent time saying things like, “That’s just how so-and-so is! They’ve always been that way with their money.” When the same trait in another conversation is called by it’s real name. Greed. Or maybe, “That’s just how I am! Always speaking my mind!” When the true definition of this “personality trait” is RUDE. There are many places where mankind can explain away an issue that needs to be dealt with as merely a part of one’s personality. Praise God that He came to make all things new! Even flawed character traits! (2 Corinthians 5:17) God clearly revealed to me recently that this thing called insecurity I’ve been clinging to is not part of the personality He gave me. It is sin, and a chain hindering what God desires to use my life for.
The effects of insecurity are far reaching. I have dealt with, off and on throughout my life, feelings of insecurity about my appearance- but more than that, an insecurity in even different positions and places that God has clearly placed me. I can’t count the hours I’ve spent wondering if I’d said something wrong, if I might have offended someone, or how I need to tell someone something without hurting their feelings. (Even if it is just telling them ‘no thanks’ about something!)
Real insecurity can come out in so many ways- but my lifetime struggle with being a people pleaser is the real way this issue always came out in me. There were times when I spoke at church, lead a bible study, or sang, and all the while felt flooded with so many accusing thoughts. “You sound like an idiot! See how that person’s looking at you! Shut up now before you mess this up any worse!” There are other times when I have felt the need to explain 100 reasons why I am making a certain decision hoping to receive approval for it from someone who has no authority in my life whatsoever. It’s almost laughable. It’s even more funny to think that would be possible at all, for a person like me who chooses some pretty extreme views on life and parenting, according to the mass populous. LIVING FOR THE APPROVAL OF OTHERS IS A CHAIN THAT WILL PREVENT US FROM STEPPING INTO THE TRUE CALLING GOD HAS FOR US! When we know we have God’s approval- nothing else can matter!
How is insecurity sin? It’s pretty simple really. Scripture tells us that anything that does not come from faith is sin. When I choose to listen and believe any voice except the voice of the One who created me in regards to my worth and my calling, I am accepting
what Satan has to say and not God’s Word. When I do not believe what God has to say about me, but anything else, I am not acting in faith. This really is another form of fear; Fear of acceptance, rejection, and failure. The bible tells us in 1 John 4:18, “There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love.” This thing called insecurity is torment! When I recognize and BELIEVE God loves me unconditionally, has a purpose for me, and is WORKiNG in me to bring that purpose to pass, the fear is wiped away. Therefore, if I am surrendered to Christ and my words come out like a stumbling, bumbling fool, God can still use even that for His glory. His love is still at work in me. There is nothing to be afraid of.
Two quotes really hit home with me at a women’s conference I attended.
“What you fear reveals what you value the most.”
“What you fear reveals where you trust God the least.” (Both from Craig Groeschel)
Why would I ever let the fear of man’s approval trump what the God of the universe has said about me?
What does God have to say about me- and all believers?
God’s word says that I am seated in heavenly places. (Ephesians 2:6)
God’s word says that I am MoRE than a conqueror! (Romans 8:37)
God’s word says He loved me so much that He sent his son to die for me! (Jn 3:16)
God’s word says that He is able to do MoRE than we ask or think through HIS power at work in us! (Ephesians 3:20)
The security that God gives is not based on ability, good deeds, or appearance. It is based on a faith in knowing what God has said, and a willingness to surrender. I do not have to be afraid of man’s reaction to my fulfillment of God’s plans. That’s irrelevant. God can cover His own back and He doesn’t need my help. Obviously, there will be times when people are offended even when a person is doing what they know to be God’s will. We as believers have to be sensitive to the Spirit and always act in love- but also bold in our God ordained steps.
When we hear those whispers of doubt from the enemy- claiming we are inadequate, stupid and we are pursuing something that will surely fail, he has a clear goal in mind. It is not to merely make us shut up and give up. It is not to only make us feel like we don’t measure up spiritually or maybe, physically. Satan not only desires to make us doubt our calling itself, but to make us doubt the ONE who called us!
We can agree with Satan’s claims of our inabilities. There’s absolutaly no shame in that! It is only God at work in us that enables us to do anything for Him! Thank God we aren’t counting on ourselves!! With that knowledge, we can stand up in faith and move forward in the supernatural ability that’s given by the Holy Spirit. Since the same power that raised Christ from the dead lives in me,(Romans 8:11) I will not be afraid, side tracked or discouraged even when the results or response to my steps aren’t as I had expected. My security in Christ is found in knowing even those results are in His hands alone. What in the world do I have to worry about? Nothing at all.